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Holding people when you can’t touch them

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I had a very interesting experience this week attending a reunion of my college fraternity. There were hundreds of guys from many different chapters ranging in age from undergrads through their 70’s from all over the country, but the vast majority of people in attendance were undergraduate and graduate men, 18-30 years of age. It was a great week getting reconnected with guys from my old chapter as well as meeting new members and older alumni.

My frat was pretty typical in that other than the occasional bro-hug or mock combat, there isn’t a lot of physical touch. On a national level, it’s not much different today than it was years ago. And stereotypes are dangerous, but while there are some frat guys who are pretty snuggly, for the most part, certainly in groups, you’d probably have better luck trying to hold eels.

It was interesting for me to see my reaction in that group, now, as someone who carries Touch Practice, because my immediate instinct was that I wanted to sit down and hold these guys, one by one, until I had made a connection with everyone. This event, however, was a situation where physically holding people was neither appropriate nor welcome, for the most part.

I found myself needing to sublimate and redirect my instincts. Was there a way to hold all of these deeply lovable brothers without touching them?

Yes; in fact, I found a number of ways to “sit with” my brothers, to hold space for them, to try to convey the same unconditional acceptance and welcome with my energetic and psychological body that I would have done with my physical body in Touch Practice.

Today’s blog is a catalogue of six different paths of redirection that emerged as I tried to energetically “hold” my brothers, particularly my younger brothers,  without touching them.

  1. Attentive listening: Giving someone your full, undivided attention as a listener can create a space that people experience only rarely in their lives. In the same way that when we hold people we attune ourselves to their breathing, their muscle tone and the details of their body using our bodies, listening deeply to the stories people tell, the words and the subtext, can offer people space to unfold in the presence of love, no less so than we can offer with our arms. Listen to someone powerfully enough and you can change their life far more than anything you could say or suggest to them. Deep listening can bring the speaker’s narrative to life in such a way that they finally hear their own story, sometimes for the first time. Some of my brothers I was able to “hug” just by sitting and listening to them and hearing the stories of where they’ve been and where life is taking them next.
  2. Witnessing: People need to be seen to be real, in some sense. When babies smile, having a parent mirror their facial gestures back to them is crucial to their development. An example in older adults can be seen in psychotherapy: when a client displays affect or story that suggests sadness, if the therapist mirrors sadness on his or her face, that creates space for the client to venture more deeply into those feelings. It’s a way of “holding” the affect of the other person. Some of my younger brothers needed simply to be witnessed, to be seen, and I tried both in listening and in speaking to say to them, in one way or another: “I see who you are. I notice you.” I pointed out to one brother how humble and kind he seemed to be while noticing that he was constantly involved in service to others. I pointed out to another brother that he seemed driven and energized and particularly productive the last few months. Both brothers responded that in fact those things were values they held dear or attributes they had been working on. I saw that, and I just let them know I noticed. I felt like I’d made a connection to them and sat with them without using touch to do it.
  3. Mentoring: A lot of the dynamics of a frat reunion, where there are older and younger guys, mimic dad/son relationships. Men often crave relationships with older, experienced guys they can look up to, ask questions of, and be seen by. One of the things we can do for each other, in both directions, is make up for stuff that our Dads either didn’t do, didn’t do in the right way, or didn’t do well enough. Those are powerful deficits that we can make a real contribution to, but this only works if the relationship is non-sexual. While very often the mentoring relationship involves a feeling of “crush” or strong affection in both directions, for the most part, mentoring relationships of the kind I’m describing fail completely if the sexual boundary is crossed. On the other hand these relationships can be powerful, almost as powerful as the father/son relationship itself, if appropriate boundaries are maintained, and if the affection and emotional pull generated is harnessed in the right ways.
  4. Selfdisclosure: Sharing something appropriate about yourself can be a way of holding space for other people. For example, at the right time and place, sharing “gosh, that’s something that I struggle with too” or “this is an area of life I find particularly difficult” will often open a floodgate in a group setting where, one by one, many other people will say, “wow, I’m so glad you mentioned that, because I struggle with this too.” Blanket self-disclosure or over-disclosure isn’t a very skillful practice, generally speaking, but if one can sensitively discern what the issues are in a particular group of men, then taking the lead on that can create space for others. If one senses in a group that many people are unhappily single, for example, then sharing information about your own recent divorce might make space for others. If one senses in a group that there are a variety of sexual orientations present, sharing one’s own bisexual orientation, for example, might make more space for everyone else.
  5. Modeling: younger men subconsciously pick up the behavior of older men and copy it, even if they’re not aware of it. Taking pains with ones’ own behavior–for example, being inclusive, or being non-violent, or being affirming–is a way of holding the potential in younger men for the same behavior. Act out your highest, best self, and you create space for, and hold, the highest, best self in the person you are holding, with or without touch.
  6. Affirmation: so much emphasis in our society goes towards the negative: we have a “self-improvement” section in most bookstores, but I have yet to see a single “gratitude” section. What’s up with that? Most guys have long lists of things about themselves that they’re working on, but if you asked them, “what is your greatest strength,” they’d have to think about it and get back to you. I found it very powerful this week to say to a younger brother, “You’re really great at setting people at ease and welcoming them; the way you used your sense of humor to diffuse that conflict was amazing.” Or, “I notice that you’re a big, strong guy but you’re very gentle in your manner with other people. I think that’s really beautiful, and rare. I admire that.” Cataloging peoples’ weaknesses is rarely a recipe for improvement, while noticing and acknowledging what makes a person special and worthwhile can energize someone for weeks afterwards.

Ironically, by the end of the week, as fatigue set in, resistance was down and people became more comfortable with each other, there was lots and lots of hugging in my frat, mostly bro-hugs but some real, connected hugs as well. Regardless of whether we do or don’t use touch, there are lots of different ways to hold people to whom we intend to offer love, warmth, and unconditional acceptance. I was really happy to hold my brothers again, whether I used my arms, my ears, my eyes, or my psyche. It was a great but exhausting week.

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  1. Stephen
    Stephen07-15-2012

    This was really good, Kevin. How to touch someone’s live without actually touching them. Maybe a good #7 could be: Give them a firm two handed, hand shake, looking them firmly in the eyes, affirming that you just gave them 1-6 and they did not even know they were touched. Or better yet, one with open mind, would feel most profoundly touched.

    • Ryan
      Ryan07-15-2012

      I really appreciate what you had to say this week. I’ve just discovered you and the work you’re doing. I’m a trained reiki practitioner and am very interested in bringing emotional healing through touch. What you said about witnessing and being present and really hearing a person is so true. My pastor was able to hear my story before I joined the church in a way that no other person has done. He heard what I said and was able to accept me in a way that transcends words. It changed my life and was healing in and of itself. I’d add not only is it important to reach someone through touch and words but also with our eyes.

      • Kevin Smith
        Kevin Smith07-15-2012

        Ryan, I’m happy to hear from you. Welcome to my site and blog. I seem to have many friends who are Reiki practitioners; it seems they’re “cousins” to this work. If you’re comfortable, please let me know via e-mail (the “contact me” link) which geographic part of the country you’re in. I’ll be sure to let you know if I ever visit your area or offer workshops there. Again, thank you for writing.

    • Kevin Smith
      Kevin Smith07-16-2012

      Hey Stephen, always great to hear from you. Fortunately, the one way guys DO touch in my frat is through shaking hands, which I’ve come to appreciate. Although it’s generally hard, brief and doesn’t carry a lot of tenderness, it does carry a certain kind of respect and strangely a sense of brotherhood because of what it symbolizes. Sometimes the handshake even comes with the other hand on a shoulder, which can be a nice twist. 🙂

  2. Jeremy
    Jeremy07-19-2012

    Just wanted to say, it seems that most of those paths of redirection you have listed here can work, to a significant degree, even when you have no physical presence at all, not even a voice, except for words on a page and some photos. Oddly enough, Kevin, through your thoughtfully chosen and presented words and pictures, and your availability and responsiveness, the skill in deeply listening to the point that a person knows they have been really heard (finally!) by how you have responded, I have already had the experience of feeling more “held” by you than I have felt while physically in the arms of another man.
    I don’t know how you find the time to do all this, and of course with something like this none of us can know if it will be there tomorrow, but it certainly has had quite an impact on me and shown me ways forward in my quest to overcome the disconnectedness in my life, including more specifically where its roots lie, that I had not seen before, and for that I, again, thank you. I feel like I have a lot of work cut out for me to become more of that kind of blessing on people around me intuitively, but it is sure worth it, and of course have great desire for all that just pure blessing to reverberate back upon you, too, man.

    • Kevin Smith
      Kevin Smith07-19-2012

      Thank you very much, Jeremy. I receive your blessing.